“she woke up screaming in the middle of the night, terrified of her own insides” – Some of the most difficult days that I deal with are the ones that follow when I have bad dreams. This week I’ve been thinking about my mom a lot and I’ve been experiencing some nightmares involving memories that…
Category: Music Corner
this is me trying – Taylor Swift
This week I’ve been sober for the first time in a while. Marijuana is legal in the state I live in and I’ve been relying on it to cope with a lot of the stress and anxieties that I have. I don’t think think that marijuana is an inherently harmful drug, but I do believe…
Alaska – Maggie Rogers
“i walked off you and i walked off an old me” – I was catching up with a friend from college this last week and she told me that she was excited to talk to me because I seemed to have changed so much in the last year and a half since graduating. Honestly, she…
waltz in a minor (reverb + rain) – Sjors Weijermars
I’ve been really busy this week with moving and interviewing for a new job. This song helped me to remember to take a deep breath and reconnect with the moment. I love all kinds of music and piano instrumentals are some of my favorites. I usually listen to rain/storm sounds to go to sleep, so…
the way it goes – Fraxiom
“This one’s for the queer kids, pioneers of the weird shit. aren’t you tired of being nice? don’t you want to go ape shit?” – I’ve thinking about my identity a lot lately and how I choose to express my inner world. I’ve come to realize that I am non-binary, meaning sometimes I feel feminine…
Weight – BROCKHAMPTON
“if people trust you they don’t need to question your decisions. you never needed them if they make you another villain” – The need to justify myself and my decisions has been a constant struggle of mine since I was a child. Being a child with undiagnosed autism meant that I was trying to convey…
Good News – Mac Miller
“maybe i’ll lay down for a little, instead of trying to figure everything out” – My energy levels are something that I tend to struggle in navigating. When my mental health is on the good side, I have lots of energy and can be very creative, efficient, and exercise frequently. When I am experiencing burnout,…
From Time – Drake & Jhené Aiko
“you give but you can not take love” – This is something that I noticed that I have a hard time with. One of my friends opened up to me recently about a really sensitive topic and told me how they value my friendship. I’ve known this friend for a few years and have had…
Curses – Food House (Fraxiom & Gupi)
I’ve been playing this song on repeat all week and it’s been giving me so much dopamine. I’ve have completely fallen in love with the hyper-pop genre and I think this song is a great representation why. A lot of the hyper-pop that I listen to revolves around the queer and gender non-conforming experience. This…
Time Comes in Roses – Bess Atwell
“i’m tired of being just like my mother, i get excited i get depressed, i’m never happy with how i’m dressed” – My mom was someone who couldn’t be alone for very long. She was a young mom that came from a bad home and so she turned to men to be that safety she…
My Existential Diary 