Welcome My Existential Diary

My name is “B” and I was one of those kids who people called an “old soul”. That pretty much means that I went through a lot of shit at a young age and that I didn’t quite fit in with the other kids around me. Thankfully, I am an adult now and “surprise!” I still have a difficult time feeling like most people around me understand who I am. I feel too deeply, I see the world in poetry, and I wonder about the birth of the universe. What I have learned through age is that these things that make me feel different, don’t make me a bad person. Who knows, maybe there are more people like me out there who care to hear my thoughts and stories. Welcome to my existential diary.


Music Corner: I’ll be posting songs that I like and my interpretations of them.


Jumbled Thoughts: I’m going to post anything and everything that I feel like. I am a true content goblin at heart so anything from books I’ve read, movies I like, podcasts, and all of the random stuff that doesn’t necessarily fit in with the rest of the blog will go here.


Poems: I’ll post one of my poems. My poems are usually very moody, sad, and full the melodramas of my life.








Gratitude Journal: I’ll post what I’m grateful every week. I get so caught up in my mental illness and depression at times, that I think it’s important that I write out the good stuff to give me a more balanced view of my life. Feel free to leave in the comments what you’re grateful for that week đŸ™‚ I always enjoy hearing from you all.

Latest from the Blog


To weep from my sadness To scream from my anger I wish I could let go without asking why I only felt justified in feeling When I could explain why I felt Intellectualizing my subconscious has left me pent up So much has gone unsaid Unresolved Not knowing how to open up in the moment…

The Lovers II (1928) – RenĂ© Magritte

Their formal clothes in contrast to their covered faces show the best sides of themselves that they choose to show each other. Their face coverings on the other hand depict that no matter how physically close these two people are, they will never truly know the other person fully.

We Never Change – Coldplay

“i want to live life and never be cruel” – This line describes a longing for a simplification of what life is. The writer wants to never be cruel and to only be kind, shining light on the reality that sometimes they hurt others but that they don’t want to. It doesn’t feel good to…

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