When I first started learning how to process trauma, I read many articles on how to be a successful adult who does all the right things and then gets the magical stamp of approval for being healed. Unfortunately, things aren’t that easy and as I grew older I found that there isn’t a one size…
Category: Jumbled Thoughts
Autism & Eating – Journal Entry
My autism diagnosis this year has helped me understand myself on much deeper levels that I ever have before. One way that I am learning more about myself is in my eating habits and struggles when it comes to feeding myself. It is a common symptom of autism to have food aversions, trouble eating balanced…
LGBT Conservatives with Contrapoints & Matt Bernstein
This week, I really enjoyed this discussion on LGBT conservatives by Matt Bernstein and Contrapoints. I related to the quote below on so many levels. I am someone who experiences intersectionality in many facets: I am pansexual, non-binary, autistic, and bi-racial. These identities are cornerstones to my being and every day experiences. I hid these…
All About Love by Bell Hooks – Book
This book is an analysis on how love is viewed by society in the United States and how we can get better at loving. Here in the U.S., we experience a 50% divorce rate (myself contributing to that statistic). This book takes a deeper look at why we struggle to love well and how we…
SlutWalks
SlutWalks are events that are taking place all around the world where people are standing up and protesting rape culture. I grew up hearing about “the walk of shame” where women are seen in the clothes they wore the previous day after leaving a sexual encounter. This is just one instance of normalizing shaming women’s…
Harm Reduction Plans – Journal Entry
I have struggled with self harm since I was a child. Being newly diagnosed with autism and being in treatment for PTSD has helped me understand and navigate my tendency to self harm. Last year I went to a 3 month long PTSD support group. This group revolved around aiming towards getting sober while discussing…
I’m Quitting My Job – Journal Entry
Everyone gets told growing up to “not be a quitter”. If you start something, you need to follow it through to the end. While I think that statement holds some truth, I don’t apply that logic to jobs. I quit my job this week and it brought up a lot for me to process. I…
Jumbled Thoughts – Day Off
Hi everyone, I’m going to skip making a post for today. I am in a burnout phase which means I am mentally and physically exhausted. I just got a cupping done and I am feeling nice and sleepy. I’m going to take a bath then snuggle in bed with a movie. This is a reminder…
Ultra Deep Field Images
[James Webb Space Telescope Image – Credit: NASA] The Ultra Deep Field images from NASA’s Hubble Space Telescope and the new James Webb Space Telescope are my favorite images of all time. These images are filled with so much information and discovery about our universe. These images are developed by pointing our space based telescopes…
Limerence – YouTube Video
I learned about the term limerence this week and found this new language extremely helpful in being aware of new ways that I can support my healing process. The Oxford Dictionary defines limerence as: “the state of being infatuated or obsessed with another person, typically experienced involuntarily and characterized by a strong desire for reciprocation of one’s feelings but…
My Existential Diary 