I hate taking things slow I want to absorb into someone else The longer we stay platonic The more I want to run away I can’t stand intimacy I prefer things intense The way things have always been Being alone with myself makes me uncomfortable I’m still looking for people to fill my time To…
Tag: trauma
Aimlessly Living
Sometimes I feel like I am living aimlessly But when I take a step back I realize that I am just living These standards I hold don’t suit me anymore Since my mom died, I’ve been destroying these walls of the box I put myself into The box where I would sometimes make her happy…
Gratitude Journal – June 4th
[My family’s dog kept me company this week] What are you grateful for this week? 🙂
Patrick Teahan – YouTube Shorts
I enjoy one of Patrick’s shorts almost everyday. These quick shorts help me to check in and validates my feelings around healing from childhood trauma. He speaks about toxic family dynamics and ways that we can honor our child self. I have been doing a lot of inner child work this last year. I didn’t…
Vacation from my mind
I get in my car and drive away But I can never escape my thoughts I’m exhausted laying in bed all day Scrolling through my phone Fleeing from myself The algorithms just feed into my self hate I look in the mirror at the clothes that I bought After one wear, I realize they can’t…
Doomsday
Days like today My dial is set to extreme Catatonically stuck Waiting for the meteor to crash in from overhead My mind flashes images of me falling into the sun Feeling comfort with telling myself that everyone hates me Sitting in a magma crater made from my self loath My smile grows bigger thinking of…
DNA
Maybe if I check out for a bit
I can come back around in a better mood
nights like this
On nights like this When I am unwell in bed I wish my mom was here to rub my back until I fell asleep I miss my grandma making me soup She always made sure I had something to eat My heart aches because that will never happen again They are both out of reach…
Health
My youth scares me
Credit
Giving up more than I have
Hoping for a future of greater opportunity
My Existential Diary 