I get stuck on how to make people love me

I’ve neglected focus on how I can love 

I lost my self worth somewhere along the way

I think when my dad left

I would always ask myself why I wasn’t good enough 

How I could be better so that he would want to be around

That stuck with me

I go to events wondering how I will be percieved

If my outfits will make people like me

Rather than finding ways that I can connect with them

I am using my child like mind to make sense of my worth in this world

I’ve been told that I need to reparent myself

That I have to become my mom and my dad

But I am stuck in my resentment of not having parents that treated me like I am valuable

That treated me like they didn’t love me