I never regret falling in love with you

Even when I put distance between us,

it’s because I know I could dive back in and wade the waves forever

I could breath in the water and act like it was natural

There is something wrong with the way that I love and the way that I cling

I am learning more about that lately

To love someone without condition leaves no room for myself and I disappear

Anxious, avoidant cyclone forms in the water

I lived at the bottom of the ocean floor

I adapted to the salty sting in my eyes

And you never noticed my pain

Even as I screamed from the abyss

I am learning to love myself more than you

I am finding out how to walk on the surface again.