Intrusive Thoughts


I try to swallow my intrusive thoughts like a pill without water

They stick to my throat and coat my tongue with the taste of bitter chemicals

On repeat

On repeat

On repeat

The circuits in my head fire

Circular thinking

My frustration rises

My skin grows numb

Disassociating from what isn’t me

Hands on the wheel

Snap back to reality

I scare myself when I am not in control

Think about the day

My flare ups meet me at my job

Two streams of thought happen at the same time

“Make sure you speak the right one”

You are out of your body watching yourself talk

The strain to keep everything on track

Try to stay calm

Try to stay calm

Try to stay calm

I get through the day but wonder how long I can keep this up

I’m exhausted doing the most normal things

2 Comments Add yours

  1. Gabriel... says:

    …I get “exhausted doing the normal things” as well. A lot of time the day-to-day things everyone else seems to do without thinking, gets put aside knowing just how exhausted I’d get doing it, until the basic things of everyday life become mountains to overcome.

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    1. B says:

      I feel that. Wishing you the best in your journey.

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